Disclaimer: real names of places, people and events may have been altered or abbreviated to protect the innocent. Namely, me.
I’m sick and tired of hearing all about my life
From other bitches with all of your lies
Wrapped up so tight, so maybe you should shut your mouth, shut your mouth
Shut your fucking mouth!
Honestly, I think it’s kinda funny that you waste
Your breath talking about me
Got me feeling kinda special really (so this is what your all about).
Girl, your such a backstabber
Oh girl, you’re such a shit talker
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it).
Well… I guess it depends which club you hit. Some are classy, some are sleazy, some are run down, some are empty… But I’ve always found the determining factor of how fun the night would be being: the gang you hit the clubs with. It’s a lot more enjoyable with people you know and trust (it’s a lot more fun doing shots and screaming Whoo!! with friends, not to mention that they’ve got your back, would not let you go home with some stranger you definitely not want to swap DNA with and who you’d have porridge with after in the event that you all are still alive at four in the morning).
Have fun and good luck on your first trip!
Come to me
In all your glamour and cruelty.
Just do that thing that you do
And I’ll undress you.
I totally relate to how you feel; and hey, you are one better than me already, I avoid public skin baring circumstances at any and all costs!
On the practical side of things, consider systematic desensitization (it’s basically about creating a hierarchy of things you fear and attempting them from easiest to hardest; in this situation it may begin with not covering yourself with a towel when there is no one else around for five minutes, and work progressively up to the final behavior goal of not needing to cover yourself with a towel at all when you’re at the pool).
Could there be any beliefs about baring your body that factor into the behavior? Perhaps one belief may you are observed by others while at the pool, and another that anything less than a perfect body cannot be exposed? These beliefs (sometimes unconscious, sometimes conscious, almost always unsaid) shape our behaviors. Examine these beliefs; some, if not most of them may be irrational or exaggerated.
People come in all shapes and sizes. I think that true happiness comes not from squeezing yourself into a certain shape, but in celebrating and loving yourself the way you already are! Self-hatred doesn’t seem to be effective motivation for change (Bandura, 1990; this one seems to be behind a paywall but another of his articles written in 1993 covers similar ground); it may sound counterintuitive but positive change arises from self-acceptance and a positive view of yourself.
Take me away
I wear my heart on my sleeve
Always let love take the lead.
I may be a little naive, yeah
You know I’m drunk on love
Drunk on love!
Nothing can sober me up
It’s all that I need, yeah.
Drunk On Love